Monthly Archives: October 2013

A change…

So much for caring about people and listening to them…

So much for spending nights to somehow make them feel better…

So much for giving up on personal matters just to be there when they thought they needed you…

So much for loading someone with confidence….

All of that, for only to be taken for granted. For only to be disappointed by realising the fact that all your efforts had no effect whatsoever. For only to realise that you were only present there as a journal where all those sorrows were written with a faith that they’ll be safe there, hidden from someone else. For only to realise that you were used as a time pass.

May be this is the moment when the all important change in life happens. May be its time when I have turn into an asshole and not give a shit about others. May be its time when all I have to do is to be self centered. May be its time to give up on all that caring about people’s emotions and an emotionless bastard. May be its finally time to be a badass.

Because, there’s a limit for everything. There’s a limit for expectations. There’s an effin’ limit of being let down, picking yourself up and only to be drowned much more into shit, every effing time. But the biggest hurdle is that when the people will come asking as to what has happened (again, I’m expecting!), all I’d be able to say is “Nahin yaar. buss aiwaen emotions. Chhoro. Tum sunao halaat behtar huay?”

To sum up my life inside 140 characters,

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Posted by on October 23, 2013 in Random


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Malala: The real story

Till this moment, I have always supported Malala and bashed each and every conspiracy theory that has been given. But, after reading these facts, I am now 200% sure that all this Malal thing is a hoax. Give it a read and know yourself.

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Posted by on October 11, 2013 in Random


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Failure with words

Every night, I open this page to put out the loneliness that surrounds me after 2 AM. You may argue that why don’t I sleep when its that late in night. Be in my place, force yourself to sleep to enjoy the nightmares and we’ll surely talk then.

As it stands, my two coolest friends are nowhere to be found, thanks to universities. One of the best friends sleep before 12 and the other is not in right frame of mind. Moreover, the person that I dearly want to talk to these days, is well, busy in being sad over someone else. Welcome to the life of the pioneer of friendzone and BFFzone. As I type this, Media Player has decided to troll me by playing the song which we have branded as our “anthem”. Dear life, way to go!

As the loneliness draws upon, songs stop making sense. Skipping each and every song on shuffle before it plays a sad song. Emotions overflow, only to be betrayed by words. So much to blab, so little motivation to move the tongue. The only consolation are the images revolving around of the delusions created by mind as I try to sleep with a smile.

Even though there are no regrets for not having a relationship or anything but there are moments when it feels a failure at life when you don’t have someone to point towards and proudly say, “Hey, this is the one who matters more than myself to me. I can wake her up in middle of her comforting sleep after a tiring day, just to tell her that I’m missing her without any second doubts. This is the one who is on my mind when I close and open my eyes. This is the one, to whom, rest of my life has been dedicated to.”

While battling with all those thoughts, at a far corner in the brain, a voice rises that shouts, and I quote,

Love is a fairy tale. A fantasy. A video game. You enjoy it for a moment before reality draws upon you. No one lives for others. It is every person for themselves.

If you’re wondering in which frame of mind I have composed this, take a look below and you can totally judge me! (and follow me too if you aren’t already)

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Posted by on October 8, 2013 in Random


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“Love is fiction. A fantasy. Or your favorite Disney movie. A limited pleasure. It only feels special either in books or on the screen.”

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Posted by on October 1, 2013 in Random


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“There’s more to married life than just cooking or having sex”

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Posted by on October 1, 2013 in Random


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